So quick

So short

Holding onto it

This is my last

Breath

That I will waste

No,

That I wont waste

Over you

Because within it

This last breath

I will tell you

What I have gone through

In my head

In my heart

The conflict

At first I thought

I don’t know

I guess I hoped

To see you

To be near you

To be with you

But then

Then I thought

No,

Then I felt

That I shouldn’t let myself

Get too close

For my fear of hurting again

Still lurks deep within

Then I felt

That you should be the one

The one to lead me

Away from the hurt

Out of my solitude

To show me what it meant

To behold someone

Someone so precious
But then of course

It never fails

To come back again

When I didn’t want it

That feeling of hurt

Of which I am familiar with

And now I feel

Alone

Breathless

Let down by the one person

I least expected

Myself

And just like that

You are gone

A last ray of hope

Within my darkness

So quick

So short

Like my last